Earlier this year, I was appointed to serve on a volunteer board for a local nonprofit. All of our active board members (6 individuals) had to take part in some overarching (annual) training yesterday, (4/29), and that training grouped us together with a number of other "affiliate (localized - statewide) boards" that duly represent this national org throughout the Magnolia State.
Some veteran Jackson Mississippi Samson guys' musings, recommended resources, and Samson Society news / updates (all written by 100% Grade A - Human Intelligence)
Weekly meetings available to you are as follows:
Tuesday at 6:30 PM, Truitt Baptist Church - Pearl. Call Matt Flint at (601) 260-8518 or email him at matthewflint.makes@gmail.com.
Wednesday at 6:00 PM, First Baptist Church Jackson - Summit Counseling Suite - 431 North State St. Jackson. Call Don Waller at 601-946-1290 or email him at don@wallerbros.com.
Monday at 6:30 PM , Vertical Church - 521 Gluckstadt Road Madison, MS 39110. Mr. Roane Hunter, facilitator, LifeWorks Counseling.
Wednesday at 7:00 PM, Crossgates Baptist Church. Brandon Reach out to Matthew Lehman at (601)-214-4077 for further info.
Sunday night at 6:00 PM, Grace Crossing Baptist Church - 598 Yandell Rd. Canton. Call Joe McCalman at 601-201-5608 or email him at cookandnoonie@gmail.com.
Saturday, April 30, 2022
Those Wounds Are No More
Monday, April 25, 2022
Do You Feel Threatened?
If someone is willing to arouse in you feelings of fear of rejection (by them), whether that someone is relationally connected to you on a familial or platonic level, there's no doubt something you've done (or position you've taken) that makes that individual very uncomfortable. And based on my experience, the more undiluted that conviction (fueling that something), the greater - proportionally - their threats to modify the parameters of their relationship with you.
Saturday, April 23, 2022
"Betrayal Trauma" By Mr. Max Morton
I remember a Sunday night in church when I was six or seven years old. I was in a small class with some other kids and the teacher was quizzing us about the Disciples of Christ. She was asking us questions like, “Which disciple was a tax collector before he followed Jesus?” “Which disciple had a twin?” “Who was the disciple Jesus loved?”
Being a church kid (back when kids went to church on Sunday night, and Wednesday night) my competitive adrenaline was flowing and I wanted to show the teacher and the other kids I was the smartest Bible kid in the room. But I kept being tripped up on two questions the teacher asked. “Which disciple denied Jesus?” and “Which disciple betrayed Jesus?”
The teacher would ask me, “Which disciple betrayed Jesus?” I would answer “Peter” and she would say, “No, Peter denied Jesus.” It would come back around to my turn and she would ask “Which disciple denied Jesus?” and I would say “Judas.” I realize now that the reason I kept missing the questions was not because I didn’t know who Peter and Judas were, but because I didn’t know the meaning of the words betrayal and denial.
Unfortunately, now I am painfully aware of the meaning of both words. I know, first hand like Peter, what it means to pretend you don’t know Jesus when it suits the purpose of saving your skin, or your reputation. I know, like Judas, what it means to be driven by my own agenda, to deceive, to pretend to love and follow, when in reality I am scheming, manipulative and willing to sell someone out with a kiss.
I have done both.
Therapists have a thing they call “betrayal trauma.” Trauma is an emotional response to a terrible event like an accident, rape, or natural disaster. Immediately after the event, shock and denial are typical. Longer term reactions include unpredictable emotions, flashbacks, strained relationships, and even physical symptoms like headaches or nausea. When a person is betrayed, the reaction varies from person to person but involves responses such as these. Betrayal causes trauma.
When my wife discovered my porn addiction it caused her “betrayal trauma” to add to the long list of trauma she had previously had to navigate in her life. I didn’t realize at the time what I had dumped on her. I wish I had known then what I know now. I wish we had been able to have conversations about how my betrayal traumatized her. Sadly, part of the response to this trauma was a strained relationship which ultimately ended in divorce. Our marriage has been over for more than three years now. I haven’t seen, spoken to her or had any contact with her for over two years. But I dreamt about her last night. Maybe I have some trauma still to be healed from the fall out of our relationship? Could I be in denial about my betrayal? I’m no different from Judas and Peter.
But when I think about that Sunday night in that classroom of kids learning about the people that followed Jesus, I desire to be more like Peter than Judas. Judas ended his own life because he couldn’t handle dealing with life because of what he did. He couldn’t get past the condemnation of his past.
By contrast, even though Peter denied even knowing Jesus (with cursing) three separate times went on to live in freedom from his sin. What was the difference between Peter and Judas? I believe Judas was a pawn of Satan, used in his evil plan to get rid of Jesus. John records at the last supper when Judas left to put the plan in motion, “the devil entered him.” Peter was restored to fellowship with Christ. In John 21 the resurrected Jesus appeared to his disciple again on the shore of the Sea of Galilee. There he had a conversation with Peter reversing his denial. Three times Peter denied Jesus, three times Jesus asked Peter if he loved him. When Peter answered in the affirmative each time Jesus followed with “feed my sheep.” A three-fold denial, a three-fold recovery and commissioning. This was why Peter in Acts 2 was able to interpret the actions of the Spirit and boldly declare the word of God resulting in over 3000 souls converted and added to the number of those following Jesus.
In my mind’s eye I go back to that classroom where six year old Max didn’t know the difference between Peter and Judas. Now I know the difference. Now I choose to follow Jesus like Peter, a restored son of the sovereign Lord.
Tuesday, April 19, 2022
How Best To Disrespect That Important Man In Your Life
At the outset of the church service on Easter Sunday morning, a concerned mom reflexively approached me about her adult son. In doing so, she asked me to reach out to him in spite of the fact that I'd already done so prior (this guy's about my age & visited our church - a few times - with his fiancé last spring). Per his mother, the son had remarried (wife #2) last summer, and as a result, his ex-wife was not / had not (quite understandably) responded well (as the mother of his only child). Therefore, her son was in an emotional pickle for such a time as this and had been for some time.
Saturday, April 16, 2022
There's No Greater Relational Poison Than Prolonged, Unjustifiable, Perpetual Anger (Towards Others Or Towards God)
My father and mother both caught COVID-19 in mid-December '20 as a result of my father choosing to take advantage of the opening of white tail deer (gun) season here in the Magnolia State. And what I mean by that specifically is he chose to gather around his comrades in arms in rural Yazoo County within their annual competitive swarm. Therein, one of the most prominent of these hunters exposed my father and the rest of the men to the virus and that was that.
Monday, April 11, 2022
"What If...?" (Mirror Universe)
My first pastor friend was our Assistant Pastor at Lakeside Presbyterian Church. He'd initially served as our church's Youth Pastor, but by the time Angie & I began visiting (with our then two little sinners) Lakeside Pres (around 2009), he'd been promoted. Brandon was / is 3-5 years older than I am, and overall is one of the most handsome Presbyterian pastors I've had the privilege to meet. Were he not a member of the clergy, he'd likely be highly successful either in the public or private sector.
Monday, April 4, 2022
Devilishly Alone Amongst The Throngs
"YOU DO NOT FIT IN HERE!"
Sunday, April 3, 2022
Turn The Other Cheek; Take The High Road; Be Polite (Pour Burning Coals On Their Heads)
One (two) of the best observational lessons I took away from my second architecting job here in Jackson stood in stark contrast to another that was in (moral) opposition to it. Each of these yin / yang lessons played out during separate seasons via two distinct, much older than Rob, individuals, one of which was my boss and the other a colleague whom I greatly respected. As a side note, I was probably around 30 years of age whilst experiencing what I'm about to describe.
Monday, March 28, 2022
"Pity The Fool" As You Yourself Were Once Pitied. You Just Might Usher Them Into Samson Society As A Result.
As an architect, I'm qualified to design buildings and to review proposed designs in an effort to provide guidance / adherence to a plan's feasibility (both aesthetically & functionally). In summary, my training puts me in a position of authority regarding building design. Pure & simple.
Tuesday, March 22, 2022
Pay Heed To The Reactionary Brain But (Whilst Appropriate) Refuse To Yield To It.
Fight or flight. You've heard that term. It represents how the reactionary brain responds to situations that pose a threat to it.
Monday, February 28, 2022
Integrated
I feel wholly integrated into Samson Society. It's taken almost eight years, but I've officially arrived. And this is no fault of anyone. Instead, it's testimony to how broken I was when I first stepped foot into the original Jackson, Mississippi meeting back in August of 2014.
Thursday, February 3, 2022
Samson Guys, As They Navigate Their Friendships Within The Community, Must Prioritize The Affirming
The title of this post is my personal opinion. And it's important to note that it's been my modus operandi relative to the Samson Society throughout my (7 year) participation therein. I realize it sounds self-centered (selfish), but my point of view - as it's written about here - is always on my personal recovery. Therefore, everyone likely won't agree with me after reading this post. But do realize, that this approach has absolutely worked for Rob.
Monday, January 31, 2022
Self-Deprecating Deja Vu
I was offended today whilst listening to an old Samson friend (around my age) dialogue with a new friend (not at all around my age) for how indirectly re-traumatic his approach to this conversation irritated, angered, short-circuited my peaceful, mundane drive into work.
Monday, January 10, 2022
How Will I Get Noticed If I'm Not On Social Media In 2022? / Respond! Respond! Respond!
We Americans celebrate, relish, elevate, & award ourselves relative to our penchant for creating and consuming entertainment. It is a mainstay of who we are as a people. And almost all of it is exported around the globe to other western (& even some eastern) cultures. Hence, it is a massive component of our economy and therefore our identity as Americans.
Sunday, January 9, 2022
Unpack It & Grieve (If Appropriate)
Compartmentalization is the process of capturing and subsequently locking away pain. That container is constructed of a series of emotionally reinforced mental partitions, often hastily and no doubt in reaction to the intensity of the (oft unexpected) situation.
Thursday, January 6, 2022
Bad / Poor Mouthing
Bad / poor mouthing is the practice of tearing others down behind their backs. It's usually executed amongst a triangulated peer group - friends, family, co-workers, and it's done because we all feel - at times - entitled to do so.