What if your dad isn't at all like the man you've become (as an adult)? Let me be more specific. What if he isn't (wasn't ever) capable (intelligence, personality, interests, motivation, etc.) of becoming the man you've become (as son, friend, businessman, leader, volunteer, etc.)?
Some veteran Jackson Mississippi Samson guys' musings, recommended resources, and Samson Society news / updates (all written by 100% Grade A - Human Intelligence)
Weekly meetings available to you are as follows:
Tuesday at 6:30 PM, Truitt Baptist Church - Pearl. Call Matt Flint at (601) 260-8518 or email him at matthewflint.makes@gmail.com.
Wednesday at 6:00 PM, First Baptist Church Jackson - Summit Counseling Suite - 431 North State St. Jackson. Call Don Waller at 601-946-1290 or email him at don@wallerbros.com.
Monday at 6:30 PM , Vertical Church - 521 Gluckstadt Road Madison, MS 39110. Mr. Roane Hunter, facilitator, LifeWorks Counseling.
Sunday night at 6:00 PM, Grace Crossing Baptist Church - 598 Yandell Rd. Canton. Call Joe McCalman at 769-567-6195 or email him at cookandnoonie@gmail.com.
Friday, April 4, 2025
I Can Relate To Your (Patriarchal) Familial Imbalance. It Sucks For You, But It's Life As You've Always Known It. Endure.
Sunday, March 30, 2025
Divorce Prejudice
Earlier this week, I had lunch with an old friend. I'd bumped into him the week prior and upon taking his card, promised to follow up. This man is +/-12 years my senior, white, upper class (for MS), working in a tangential industry to architecture (my first career). He was instrumental in supporting me therein (while I was working in the private sector) for a number of years.
Around 16-17 years ago, this man surprisingly divorced his wife, and though it didn't hit me as hard as it would have otherwise (if we'd been closer friends), it still hit hard. For I knew his wife indirectly (I'd perhaps met her twice), and I knew he had two beautiful children.
Why?
Tuesday, March 11, 2025
Desperation To Be Seen
I often ask Samson brothers who're just beginning the recovery journey, "What is it that you're truly looking for whilst consuming pornographic content?"
Tuesday, February 18, 2025
Amazing Reunion
I spoke with my freshman roommate (Mississippi State University) yesterday, (2/17) for the first time since last seeing him in '91 (we didn't part ways amiably). Having acquired his cell phone # from our aforementioned rental neighbors, I placed a call on Valentine's Day (don't read anything into that one, please), leaving Chad a detailed voicemail.
Monday, February 17, 2025
Privately Lusting After Muscled And Hairy
My Covenant Eyes Ally had me laughing a few weeks back. He's an attorney with a sharp wit. Around that time, I had found myself being rebellious, therefore throwing caution to the wind, I'd been delving into smut (mostly via my pocket computer) in spite of CE's consistent monitoring (thankfully, this was not typical behavior for me).
As such, on a few subsequent Mondays, a text message would appear subtlety / respectfully asking about my recent poor choices. Not long after that, my Ally made a follow up that even today puts a smile on my face.
He said, "You and I like the same thing except for the muscles and body hair."
Lol.
Tuesday, November 12, 2024
Will God Resurrect BoyRob? (Especially Considering That Blazen Rebuke By My Own Hands.)
I often have vivid dreams. Recently, one of those featured my toy poodle, a childhood dog that my parents purchased for me when I was in 6th grade.
I wish I could say I was a loving, caring dog owner, but I was not. This animal served more like a physical stand-in for the part of me that simply wanted to be loved (too much?). And as such, due to my disgust with myself, I absolutely didn't fulfill that wish.
Nonetheless, the dog lived a 15+ year life, existing well into my young adulthood (thanks to my 'rents caring for him while I was away at college).
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Tuesday, September 17, 2024
That First Foray Into The Notion Of The Supernatural
This post is going to address the specific entertainment culture of the '70s by allowing my memories (& amateur commentary) regarding television to narrate therein.
Tuesday, September 10, 2024
My Wife's Limp
Rarely does my sweet wife use her left hand to move her lovely salt & pepper hair out of her face. Instead, she uses her right hand. Why?
Monday, September 2, 2024
Recommended Reading / Rob's Cycle of Porn
The Cycle of Pornography | Evidence Unseen
My first encounter with porn (late elementary school) occurred at my uncle's apartment. I was around 4-5th grade, and it was my cousin (my uncle's son - an only child like me) who exposed me to his father's Penthouse magazines. Even then, it was the male models that I was drawn to the most. Nonetheless, I was so curious as to what sex / sensuality was. These soft-lensed, exquisitely photographed pictorials fueled my desire to learn more. I remember masturbating in the hall bathroom after my cousin and I had "had our fill". I loved the powerful arousal that occurred via these photos (tied to the clandestine investigation) which in turn made the climaxes that much moreso unbelievable.
Looking back, I had no idea what was truly going on due to being brought up in such a vacuum-of-sexual-information-household. Nonetheless, what I did know was I too (as a human being) was "wired for sex", therefore it felt imperative that I take these opportunities to learn / feel as much as possible in this regard.
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Saturday, May 25, 2024
Intimacy With Men Lives On Via Memory & Technology
Sledge's birthday is 2024's Memorial Day. Leading up to his birthday, each year, I re-listen to his audio journals & re-read his personal analytical work that he so fearlessly sent my way back in 2018. Sledge was 28 at the time, and I was 45. We'd met due to his willingness to step into the Samson Society meeting I facilitated at Lakeside Pres. At the time, lust was a sizable part of his life, and he'd found himself convicted therein whilst hearing a mutual friend of ours share his testimony (prior to referring his audience to Samson Society).
Monday, May 6, 2024
Rob's (Adolescent) Self-Pleasure Hidey Hole
You've heard the trope. "I'm taking / claiming sanctuary / asylum here within the church house".
During the previous US President's administration, a number of illegal immigrants took this approach (as a last resort to being deported).
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Thursday, May 2, 2024
Utilizing Unresolved Familial Baggage To Perpetuate / Justify A Rudderless Life / Existence (With Much Rubble By The Wayside). Recognizing How Easy It Is To Establish An Identity For Identity's Sake.
Growing up Southern Baptist, I recall vividly (as a teen) one particular pastor chiding us parishioners (First Baptist Church Jackson) from the pulpit with, "Do you know that you know that you know?"