What if your dad isn't at all like the man you've become (as an adult)? Let me be more specific. What if he isn't (wasn't ever) capable (intelligence, personality, interests, motivation, etc.) of becoming the man you've become (as son, friend, businessman, leader, volunteer, etc.)?
Some veteran Jackson Mississippi Samson guys' musings, recommended resources, and Samson Society news / updates (all written by 100% Grade A - Human Intelligence)
Weekly meetings available to you are as follows:
Tuesday at 6:30 PM, Truitt Baptist Church - Pearl. Call Matt Flint at (601) 260-8518 or email him at matthewflint.makes@gmail.com.
Wednesday at 6:00 PM, First Baptist Church Jackson - Summit Counseling Suite - 431 North State St. Jackson. Call Don Waller at 601-946-1290 or email him at don@wallerbros.com.
Monday at 6:30 PM , Vertical Church - 521 Gluckstadt Road Madison, MS 39110. Mr. Roane Hunter, facilitator, LifeWorks Counseling.
Sunday night at 6:00 PM, Grace Crossing Baptist Church - 598 Yandell Rd. Canton. Call Joe McCalman at 769-567-6195 or email him at cookandnoonie@gmail.com.
Friday, April 4, 2025
I Can Relate To Your (Patriarchal) Familial Imbalance. It Sucks For You, But It's Life As You've Always Known It. Endure.
Sunday, March 30, 2025
Divorce Prejudice
Earlier this week, I had lunch with an old friend. I'd bumped into him the week prior and upon taking his card, promised to follow up. This man is +/-12 years my senior, white, upper class (for MS), working in a tangential industry to architecture (my first career). He was instrumental in supporting me therein (while I was working in the private sector) for a number of years.
Around 16-17 years ago, this man surprisingly divorced his wife, and though it didn't hit me as hard as it would have otherwise (if we'd been closer friends), it still hit hard. For I knew his wife indirectly (I'd perhaps met her twice), and I knew he had two beautiful children.
Why?
Tuesday, March 18, 2025
That Hot, Sexy Runner: Reversing The Clock By 20 Years...
Spring has sprung in Mississippi.
Tuesday, March 11, 2025
Desperation To Be Seen
I often ask Samson brothers who're just beginning the recovery journey, "What is it that you're truly looking for whilst consuming pornographic content?"
Sunday, March 9, 2025
Marinating In The Debased / A Fantastic Interruption!
I have found, as of late, so much insight (& balloon busting emotional calibration) by listening in on pagan men's point of view / choices therein as it pertains to what they actually do with their sex organs and why. To be more specific, gay porn stars and their careers (full-time or side hustle) therein.
You might find yourself befuddled over such an investment in my time, but there's no doubt, that for me, hearing these tales - directly from the horses' mouths - rattles me to the core (in a very productive way). And this rattling effectively vaporizes the shrink-wrapped veneer that boyRob so easily / reflexively applies to smut. A veneer that I habitually use to qualify its consumption as worthwhile.
Regarding straight porn, there's tremendous exploitation of the females who model for that explicit content. That's obvious to everyone. But with gay porn, there's much less of that. Instead, what you'll find is so many of these men are simple deeply, deeply wounded psychologically (whether gay for pay or not), and as such, their tremendously destructive actions ("art" imitating life) are then put on full display (for a small fee).
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Let me return to this notion of shrink-wrapping smut. For it's been a real problem of mine for too long.
I'm an architect. Drawing / painting / sculpture are kissing cousins to designing buildings. For well-designed buildings are a 4-D solidification of space using all the same tools one might use via drawing / painting / sculpture. Therefore, composition is key (light, shadow, texture, proportion, and on and on).
And this absolutely starts with the human figure. For an artist begins his understanding of composition there.
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My wife and two of my three daughters are returning from Paris today. Having spent a few months backpacking throughout eleven countries in Europe during the summer of '94, I had no desire to accompany them on this first-time ever to Europe Spring Break trek. Europeans have a very different relationship to the human form than we Americans do, and that's - for better or worse - the result of our Puritanical roots.
Nonetheless, if you've ever had the opportunity to draw a nude model, you know that salaciousness quickly flies out the window as you're attempting to honor those few raw moments (with either charcoal, pencil, brush in hand).
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One Valentine's Day (I believe it was around 2008), I gifted my sweet wife, Angie, a coffee table photo book of male models (95% of the content was explicit) posing as blue-collar Aussie blokes. I did this in sincerity as a means to invite her into a "shared appreciation".
Boy, did that not go over well.
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As much as I can't, in all honesty, recommend this same de-veneering approach to the "general public", if your boyself is as stubbornly blind as mine is AND you have any semblance of an artistic eye, it may be that taking steps to lift the skirt of those you've come to worship / elevate may be the very thing that removes you too from the recovery plateau that you can't seem to easily shake.
But be forewarned. Much of what you'll hear will break your heart into pieces.
Monday, February 17, 2025
Privately Lusting After Muscled And Hairy
My Covenant Eyes Ally had me laughing a few weeks back. He's an attorney with a sharp wit. Around that time, I had found myself being rebellious, therefore throwing caution to the wind, I'd been delving into smut (mostly via my pocket computer) in spite of CE's consistent monitoring (thankfully, this was not typical behavior for me).
As such, on a few subsequent Mondays, a text message would appear subtlety / respectfully asking about my recent poor choices. Not long after that, my Ally made a follow up that even today puts a smile on my face.
He said, "You and I like the same thing except for the muscles and body hair."
Lol.
Thursday, February 6, 2025
A Powerful Stream Of Piss
One way to ensure high pressure urination is to hold it in for a while. Another way is to acquiesce one's genitals into their "best" (most pleasurable) behavior (coitus). & I don't say that in jest. Everyone (ideally) hopes to show their lover a good time when the time comes (sorry). And by that very hopeful goal / definition, the resulting acidic release will no doubt be impressive.
In closing, remember where you once were, my Samson brother, when you first stepped foot into a meeting. As such, encourage newbies to pee, all the more, 'till they've fully relieved themselves. And this may take months, if not years, of being listened to. For their troubles didn't happen overnight, and it will take time for their permanent / new home to be planned / constructed.
Saturday, January 25, 2025
I'm Just Another Man. Or Am I?
Years ago, during the pandemic, I wrote a letter to my Silas' (then) boss, asking for permission to "surprisingly visit" their workplace (in light of the lockdowns). If I'm remembering correctly, I was attempting to gain permission to do this on my Silas' birthday. What I didn't realize at the time was his boss (along with his beautiful family) were visiting our church. Once he did eventually respond to me (letter), via email, he informed me of that (in line with an apology related to not being able to honor my surprise visit request).
Wednesday, January 22, 2025
Saturday, January 11, 2025
Curiosity Guardrails
As a 52-year-old, I have and continue to be a very curious person. And this curiosity primarily is seated towards men / boys / males. Whether it's interpersonal, business, church, if males are involved therein, I'm curious as to who these dudes are specifically / what motivates them to be involved / their backstory, etc. In other words, if I had been Steve Trevor, landing on Themyscira by accident, I would likely have quickly died from boredom. Why? To Rob, women, in particular, are incredibly boring / uninteresting handiworks of the Creator God. And no, that statement doesn't automatically make me a misogynist. For I love my wife and my daughters with my whole heart.
Wednesday, December 25, 2024
MERRY CHRISTMAS 2024!
MERRY CHRISTMAS 2024!
Wednesday, December 4, 2024
When Seduction / Sexual Conquest Fuel A Man's Masculinity Engine / "Boys Will Be Boys"
Perhaps you've heard the term "serial adulterer". Or perhaps "womanizer". Numerous high-profile entertainers (TV, film, music, sports) are labeled as such. And that makes sense. They're entertainers. Suave. Confident. And oftentimes, very, very professionally successful (or at least aspiring / appearing to be).
Have you ever thought of intercourse as calisthenics?
Friday, November 29, 2024
Captivated By Masculinity (+ Baritone Voices)
Tuesday, (11/26) my youngest daughter and I screened "Gladiator II" at our local cinema. Interestingly enough, "Gladiator I" was released in 2000 when I was 28 years old. Back then, I was absolutely captivated by masculinity. To the point that seeing a film that so celebrated it (as "Gladiator I" did) would have only sent me deeper into private despairing. For masculinity (as I perceived it) had enough gravitational pull to consistently hijack my thoughts, causing me to ruminate / obsess in such a way that could easily be described as cerebral / emotional bondage. As such, particular as a newlywed, I felt the only means of escape was to avoid entertainment firstly that celebrated it (as "Gladiator I" so successfully / ostentatiously did).
Tuesday, November 12, 2024
Will God Resurrect BoyRob? (Especially Considering That Blazen Rebuke By My Own Hands.)
I often have vivid dreams. Recently, one of those featured my toy poodle, a childhood dog that my parents purchased for me when I was in 6th grade.
I wish I could say I was a loving, caring dog owner, but I was not. This animal served more like a physical stand-in for the part of me that simply wanted to be loved (too much?). And as such, due to my disgust with myself, I absolutely didn't fulfill that wish.
Nonetheless, the dog lived a 15+ year life, existing well into my young adulthood (thanks to my 'rents caring for him while I was away at college).
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Thursday, October 17, 2024
Shortened leash
I've written that Covenant Eyes is no longer working on my pocket computer, and that my pocket computer has a screen that's larger and more vibrant than anything I've ever had prior (I "inherited" it from my oldest daughter earlier this year as a result of her purchasing her own, more up-to-date pocket computer).
For years, I've kept my pocket computer on my bedside table whilst sleeping. Hence, I was prone to browse the www late into the night and also whilst having short bouts of insomnia during the early morning.
Sunday, September 29, 2024
Identify / Identity Through Observational Contrasts. Embracing / Celebrating God-Given Opportunities For Discernment Regarding Who You Truly Are.
There were so many positive attributes to working for the state of MS ('06-'12) as a Staff Architect, but one of my favorites was the opportunity to befriend / work with architects / engineers, that I'd never met prior, from all over the Magnolia State. And I'll say it again: All architects are very unique (before getting into specifics).
One local (Jackson Metro) architect I worked alongside on many a bond-monies funded project was +/-15 years my senior. This elder statesmanish, laid-back sole proprietor worked from home and had recently passed the finish line pertaining to rearing his two (then young adult) children (they were more or less up and out).
Wednesday, September 25, 2024
I Don't Want To Be Like You / "Can I Truly Respect This Guy?"
Dreaming about my past work as an architect (intern & eventually licensed pro) between '96 and '06 (private sector job) happens often. And these dreams are so vivid that whilst waking up, I'm so very relieved to no longer bear the burdens I once did (though I really do enjoy the heady emotions brought on by the fantastical revisit).
At that time ('96-'06), I was (almost) fresh out of college, and having never met an architect that I truly wished to emulate / look up to (high school / college experience or otherwise), I gravitated towards the man who hired me for such a time as that.