As I believe I've mentioned in the past, my Silas and I have regularly scheduled face-to-face meetings throughout the month. One of these is a scheduled lunch and the other is a more intimate get-together at a local park (in the evening as it's too steamy during the day).
In anticipation of one of those scheduled rendezvouses, I've been rehearsing within my head what I'm going to share relative to where I've been over the past 3-4 weeks. Hence, I'm really revved up about this forthcoming meeting. To expound on that a bit, I made a statement at one of the more recent "Make Thursdays Great Again" Samson Society meetings that I was feeling quite emotionally constipated. Well, once again, I'm there. Hence, my hope is during my forthcoming Silas meeting, I can "empty my lower track".
If there were a theme to what I've decided to share / dump, it would be that I'm feeling woefully overlooked as of late, and I believe the primary driving force behind this feeling is how much caregiving I've been doing relative to my family (immediate & extended). And I'm absolutely fine with caregiving. Rob is a giver by default, but I've been doing a boatload of it over the past month or so. As you can imagine, because of this overload, there've been ramifications therein that I've regretted.
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I took a few moments tonight to express my overlookedness to my wife, and I came away feeling like I'd royally disappointed her. As such, those feelings weren't nearly as intense as they should have been (considering reality), but as a giver - & particularly as her husband - it made me feel remorseful for speaking up.
I'm officially queued up for my Silas. Please be in prayer that he's in a good place to receive what I'm needing to relinquish and that neither of our calendars are hijacked - in the meantime - by the unexpected / unplanned.
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