Some veteran Jackson Mississippi Samson guys' musings, recommended resources, and Samson Society news / updates (all written by 100% Grade A - Human Intelligence)
Weekly meetings available to you are as follows:
Tuesday at 6:30 PM, Truitt Baptist Church - Pearl. Call Matt Flint at (601) 260-8518 or email him at matthewflint.makes@gmail.com.
Wednesday at 6:00 PM, First Baptist Church Jackson - Summit Counseling Suite - 431 North State St. Jackson. Call Don Waller at 601-946-1290 or email him at don@wallerbros.com.
Monday at 6:30 PM , Vertical Church - 521 Gluckstadt Road Madison, MS 39110. Mr. Roane Hunter, facilitator, LifeWorks Counseling.
Wednesday at 7:00 PM, Crossgates Baptist Church. Brandon Reach out to Matthew Lehman at (601)-214-4077 for further info.
Sunday night at 6:00 PM, Grace Crossing Baptist Church - 598 Yandell Rd. Canton. Call Joe McCalman at 601-201-5608 or email him at cookandnoonie@gmail.com.
Wednesday, April 29, 2020
Tuesday, April 28, 2020
A Paranoid Man Is The Ultimate Loner (We Welcome Them Into Samson Society)
What does paranoia look like?
It's a man's constant belief that others are potentially undermining him and what he considers to be important. The keywords there are "what he considers to be important".
Paranoid men are laser focused on themselves and their ultimate satisfaction via a certain graded standard of performance (their own). Therefore, looking like a failure, stupid, unintelligent is quite difficult for these guys due to how it stirs up those internal feelings of insecurity (temperament). Often, these men will discount large swathes of opportunity relative to relationships, vocational challenge, voluntary positions, etc. all due to their determination to "not fail" (or be perceived as such) - even at the slightest level.
And this puts them in a position of being singular. Me, myself, and I. All alone. Because, in their mind, this is the safest position to be in. And from a rationale point of view, this is quite true.
Sadly, paranoid men who experience rejection by their wives (adultery), job loss (due to their own ineptitude), etc. feel torpedoed. And this is because their worst nightmare has now come true!
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So how to determine if a guy is paranoid?
It's not easy because they tend to hide it from the world. Paranoia is like cancer. It eats the man from the inside out, and he knows it. Hence, he attempts to hide it from everyone.
The best means of picking up on paranoia is to spend regular time with him. This can be as an employer, employee, friend, co-volunteer, even a neighbor (longstanding). But, if you're in a position of authority (either legit or implied) over him, he'll often feverishly hide this part of himself. Again, because it's like cancer. And no one wants to be identified with cancer (because it's a disease that weakens / disables / wastes).
But, there is one identifier that you can look out for, though I see it more as a McGuffin than anything else. And that's seemingly enjoying poor mouthing other men behind their backs. Men who do this are behaving like women - typically - and this points back to the beginning of this post.
That being said, a guy who's into regularly poor mouthing everyone around him isn't necessarily paranoid, but he may be.
I know. It's confusing.
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So, what redeeming qualities are there within these men? Are there any? Of course.
Paranoid men can be ambitious to a fault and deeply loyal to those they commit to. Therefore, they tend to be high performance men within the workforce and inside of their families. Driven. That's an overused word, but it fits the bill here in describing these men. Other than that, their positive attributes are all over the map and therefore individually specific.
That being said, many paranoid men I've had the privilege to work with / for / befriend are plenty intelligent, or at least enough so to be cognizant of their own insecurities.
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So what originates a man's paranoia? Where does the infection (cancer) begin?
I know for some guys, it's an outright inequality in character traits that drives this. These can be physical (too short, too fat, not masculine enough) mental (not intelligent enough) or emotional (overly sensitive). If he believes these negative traits put him at a distinct disadvantage, and those "markers" become truth to him, he might potentially be changed over time - for the worse - and become paranoid.
This is why men pay big bucks to attend self-help seminars with men like Tony Robbins or in the same vein, become Scientologists. Whatever they can do to "de-construct this negative thinking" or somesuch relative to how they perceive themselves.
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What I want to know is are paranoid men actually ever Christians? Is it possible to be a, transformed by the gospel of Jesus Christ, Child of God and yet still be paranoid?
Whilst looking at Scripture, King Saul is the ultimate paranoid loner. And God's hand was upon him (for a time) 'till his paranoia towards others seemed to take hold.
Paranoia, I also believe, may be an outgrowth of depression.
So many unanswered questions here. Sorry about that. God bless those men who struggle with paranoia.
Paranoia is represented here by the bear. It's no teddy. |
Sunday, April 26, 2020
"I (Provide Security To) Joanna!" (The Pitched TV Husband / Dad)
I agreed to go in order to see my wife's college town, take in a football game within their new stadium, etc., but for my girls, it was all about celebrating their love for Chip and Joanna Gaines. Therefore, we took in the obligatory Magnolia touristy settings (Silos, restaurant), and Angie picked up a cookbook (which she's never cooked anything out of, yet it sits proudly at the end of our breakfast room table collecting dust).
Overall, we western white people idolize and absolutely crave fame despite the fact that there's only an infinitesimal chance we'll ever see it. To us, it's the ultimate means to fortune and perhaps "changing the world for the better". Therefore, the next best thing is living vicariously through those who have achieved it. And this is where the Chip and Joanna Gaines of each American generation come into play for so many of us.
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New and newish Samson guys know the uniqueness of attending a Samson meeting. They feel the atypical within most every word spoken, and it simply doesn't feel at all natural, safe, or even (for many) very productive. I've heard guys describe it as simply coming together with "a bunch of losers / freaks".
Well, I can tell you based on what I know (key phrase) of Mr. Chip Gaines, he ain't no loser, therefore he certainly will never be a Samson guy.
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Chip Gaines represents the ideal red-blooded American husband / father / businessman. He's white, has perfect teeth, is rich, funny, and absolutely, positively, without a shadow of a doubt in love with his wife, Jo.
Joanna Gaines is the daughter of immigrants. She's the more subdued, less outgoing of the two who's constantly feigning over her husband.
Think of them as the inverse of the Arnazes (Desi & Lucille) from the 1950s. Yet, the "I Love Lucy" show was simply a massively popular television situation comedy featuring two vaudeville actors (along with their two co-stars). "Fixer Upper", on the other hand, attempts to be much more grounded in reality (television) than "I Love Lucy" ever was.
But is it really, or are we as the audience simply being taken, yet again, for a Hollywood ride whilst all the while being measured up to a standard that's not at all grounded in reality?
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As I've written on this blog repeatedly, women (white women especially) crave security in and through their husbands. And this feminine attribute, I profoundly believe, is what the popularity of the Gaines' influential television empire is built on. Therefore, at the epicenter of that is Chip Gaines, or at least the Chip Gaines persona that is solicited to his fans as husband, father, contractor, and hardworking cowboy.
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Not long after the "I Love Lucy" / "Lucy-Desi Comedy Hour" ended its run in the '50s, the Arnazes divorced due to Desi's infidelity / substance abuse. And this split was well documented, blindsiding and shocking the American public. Lucille Ball, like so many divorcees, never fully recovered from this despite her hasty second marriage.
Chip Gaines has maintained repeatedly that his love for his beloved Joanna will endure, and that they'll never split under any circumstances. And by God, it's as if it's been decreed by Moses himself simply because he said it on TV.
Similar to Ms. Ball's emotional fallout to her failed, very public marriage, her Hollywood career also fell apart soon thereafter, and this was due to the fact that what her husband had represented to her (& to the American public) was now seen as a ruse. In other words, he was simply a "loser" just like most every other American husband.
Oh, if only Samson Society had existed back in 1960...we would have welcomed Desi.
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So, why choose to not elevate / idealize TV personality husbands whether they're from the 1950s or today? Who instead, but a true loser, would "invest" in anything but attempting to obtain a marriage, family, bank account, notoriety, and influence similar to Chip Gaines'?
Because we don't know anything more than what is pitched to us through the TV screen, within the books, or through their websites about any of these people. And the key word here is pitched. Therefore, what we do know cannot be, under any circumstance, trusted.
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Below are the economics of being an entertainment celebrity within our western culture. It is not complicated.
How does Chip Gaines make his fortune? The same way Desi Arnaz did. Loyal viewership. (All eyes on me.)
Viewership brings in more ad revenue to networks, which in turn increases the already massive pay of TV stars. Loyal viewership (week after week after week of time wasted) is cultivated by precisely nurturing the pitch week to week, and this is done through pre-scripting and masterful editing. Publicists work diligently behind the scenes 24/7 along with teams of personal assistants to fine tune the illusion in order to sell it again and again (eventually into syndication) as a believable, entertaining narrative.
Women are fairly clear cut when it comes to what they perceive as either secure or insecure. Therefore, relative to TV personalities, the executives have learned how to carry forward, whilst localizing (whether it's 1958 or 2020), that Desi Arnaz image.
So...I'd like to personally circle back to this notion of security and how fundamentally important it is to women.
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+/-10 years ago, my wife was in her late 30s. At the time, we had two daughters, one in first or second grade and another in kindergarten. And that was to be our family since we'd chosen to wait 6 years into our marriage to attempt to get pregnant. All was good. Very good, in fact.
Then Angie accidently became pregnant a third time. And my wife isn't a woman who relishes pregnancy. Quite the opposite. Mainly due to the discomfort and (for her) constant anxiety relative to the health of herself and the baby.
Ever since this accidental third (high risk) pregnancy, she's been suspect of my penis and its ability to get her pregnant. Therefore, intercourse is tainted with that reality. Every. Single. Time. And this is the case despite her now being nearly 50 and experiencing perimenopause. In other words, there isn't any amount of seduction I can perform on her that might circumvent her now insecurity in me and my curs-ed dick.
Therefore, our sex life has changed dramatically. But, it's taught me so much about her (for the better, actually). Angie works full-time as a CPA, and her career is important (to both her and our household income). Plus, rearing children is exhausting due to it being loaded with heady responsibilities that are constant. Therefore, the impact of being outnumbered with three offspring can and has been overwhelming to us (along with every other family who's experienced this reality).
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I'm not a TV personality. Instead, I'm quite the loser / freak with a lot of problems who's invested himself in a ministry called Samson Society. I do not radiate constant secureness when I'm around my wife, nor do I know how to renovate houses (as they do on Fixer Upper). I don't drive a pickup truck or wear cowboy boots. And I'm usually not all smiles all the time - as if I just got laid by my smitten wife (because I likely didn't). Come to think of it, I'm not even sexually attracted to the mainstream American female!
And I'm at peace with all of that.
You, dear reader, should be too. To hell with TV personas like Desi and Chip. Good riddance. They are the cultural bane of Hollywood despite their being consistent big time money-makers who do so much indirect harm to us, all in the name of entertainment.
I'm simply calling it like I see it.
The opposite of a Samson Society guy. |
Friday, April 24, 2020
The Samson Society - The "No Bull Briefing" Newsletter - April 2020
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Wednesday, April 22, 2020
Walk. Long. Distances.
So, I didn't have much motivation to spend time with anyone but myself during idle time (which there wasn't much of outside of coursework), but this was especially true during years 1-3. Considering that, Starkville isn't anything more than a small Mississippi university town. Other than a very picturesque cemetery that's not too far from campus, there were no parks, topographical landmarks or such. Plain, boring, efficient, flat. These were all words that described where I lived at the time. Monotonous to say the least. (Though very safe and efficient!)
So, during my time away from the architecture building (Friday nights and Sunday afternoons) with the exception of football Saturdays (I marched in the Maroon Band), I'd take long walks. My Friday night walks would usually start in a car lot in town with a frozen yogurt in hand, but my Sunday afternoon walks, in contrast, would begin at the rear door of my dorm building, headed south through a then open field.
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I wasn't athletic at all during this period of my life despite my youth. I'd headed to college immediately following high school, but had never played any team sports (band geek). So, walking was all I really knew how to do in terms of intentional physical activity (other than masturbating!).
And it became a wonderful hobby to nurture.
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Today, I serve a number of business owner clients as their group insurance broker and / or their 401(k) plan advisor. I enjoy working with business owners, with my primary focus being consulting engineers. Engineers are the next of kin to us architects, also having endured grueling higher learning curriculums at some accredited institution. I do, as well, serve some individual clients, but mostly my focus has been on engineering firms.
So, on my clients' behalf, it's important that I keep a pulse on the economy.
To summarize where we're at today with this pandemic, let me be frank.
Economically, our world has officially been frozen in so many sectors. And this has occurred seemingly overnight. And the longer the economy stays frozen, the harder it will be to melt it.
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I've written here (I think) about Angie's (my wife) shoulder injury that occurred back in January. Just a few weeks back, she diagnosed herself as having frozen shoulder. Essentially, this occurs mainly in women (about 2%) who experience injury that then requires the arm to be immobile (in a sling) for an extended period of time during healing. Frozen shoulder is a shoulder that won't move but a fraction of what it should / did. It's as if it's literally locked up. At first, she thought her arm was broken, but the pain-free movement is there to discount that (along with an x-ray). Instead, due to the inflammation and aforementioned extended non-movement, the ball joint in her shoulder is literally frozen up. And believe me when I say, it ain't moving except within a small fraction of her original range of motion.
What's sobering about this reality is it could take up to two years for her shoulder to completely thaw, again allowing her to move it within the full range of motion as before. Hence, our lives here will look very different 'till that occurs.
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Our economy is exactly as vulnerable to this longstanding freezing, and it's all hinged on how long we as consumers refuse / are motivated to not consume (due to the quarantine). Each and every day that passes, we become more and more comfortable to our "new normal", and we don't even realize it's happening.
What makes us humans so very human is our ability to adapt to almost any conceivable circumstance. In doing so, we expend an enormous amount of effort (& for this we're often quite self-congratulatory), therefore reverting back to our previous selves / ways / patterns is at times neither appealing nor seemingly worth the effort.
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Two years is what we're up against here - at a minimum. Both in regards to my sweet wife's shoulder as well as our economic outlook. Therefore, do yourself a favor. Walk. Long. Distances. Enjoy the Spring weather either during the day or at night. Set a course and go.
Remember, though you may feel confined to the blender, you do have an opportunity to walk it out. |