As a 52-year-old, I have and continue to be a very curious person. And this curiosity primarily is seated towards men / boys / males. Whether it's interpersonal, business, church, if males are involved therein, I'm curious as to who these dudes are specifically / what motivates them to be involved / their backstory, etc. In other words, if I had been Steve Trevor, landing on Themyscira by accident, I would likely have quickly died from boredom. Why? To Rob, women, in particular, are incredibly boring / uninteresting handiworks of the Creator God. And no, that statement doesn't automatically make me a misogynist. For I love my wife and my daughters with my whole heart.
As such, women / girls / females are of distinct value, but overall, I MUCH PREFER being opportunistic regarding rubbing shoulders with men / boys / males. & for the most part, this curiosity is rooted in my own gender combined with my distinct inability to see myself (good, bad or ugly) therein. Combine those two together and you have an endless supply of motivation to be man / boy / male curious / associative.
A distinct benefit of my men / boy / male curiosity / fascination is it has allowed me to clinically analyze the cultural choice that so many men have made as it pertains to their homosexual desires, and the keyword there is clinically. And I've been doing this from early on within my life as I crossed paths with in-person men prior to also overlaying that MO with those who present themselves online. Earlier this week, I delved into a podcast that's hook is interviewing hyper-masculine gay porn stars. And it was fascinating. To have that granular opportunity here in 2025 is amazing. For it allows me to see / understand / confirm my choices by analyzing - up close & personal - theirs. All the while satiating my curiosity appetite (in ways that do not involve gay porn).
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And that serves as a lovely segue into the ease of access of gay porn and why that's such an issue for me.
Covenant Eyes is my lifesaver. It puts guardrails on my insatiable curiosity yet not so much that I feel like I'm being treated as if I'm a child.
I have one Ally who monitors the CE reporting and WILL reach out if he sees activity (he receives my report on Monday) therein that seems abnormal.
This man is local, and we've known each other for many years (originating within in-person Samson Society). I respect this man enough to know how his presence as my Ally influences my behavior online.
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What's unusual is how effective this is overall. Now, there have been rare occasions (tail end of last year) where I've been lackadaisical, and this has resulted in me delving into gay porn consumption no holds barred (for a week or two). But this approach / attitude isn't the norm.
Nonetheless, if throwing caution to the wind does rear its head more than usual, I may very well turn on filtering within the CE sentinel software as a means to an end. Thankfully, at this point, I've never had to do that.
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And yes, there are times when CE "craps out" and needs reinstallation. All software has this trait, and mostly it's due to CE not being able to readily keep up with OS updates - rung to rung.
In closing, CE is a huge partner of Samson Society. I love this especially about their company. Countless men hear about Samson Society via their engagement with Covenant Eyes.
All this being said, I just purchased a CE lifetime membership and am proud for it.
Thank you, Covenant Eyes for orchestrating my online behavior for the better.
