The traumatization that occurred due to my job loss in September of 2013 shut the trap door and bolted it shut, leaving my brain under the complete control of "the monkey part" (hippocampus). As such, I could not healthily process memory / grieve, and therefore (within 3 months) I developed Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). This consisted of tremendously debilitating flashbacks of my humiliating / shame-laden termination that went on (at least once daily) for 18 months.
Up until this occurred, I'd had access to my cortex (trap door open), and it served me well throughout my adult life. Particularly from the standpoint of coping with my identity as a same-sex attracted Christian man. To be more specific, my cortex's control (point of view) always rendered hopefulness. Therefore, without it, I eventually became suicidal. Such was the fatiguing contrast that I was experiencing.
This video does an excellent job of breaking down / categorizing the power of trauma on the three components of the brain whilst simplistically defining each. As such, it was super helpful to me.
Recommended viewing.
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