That’s my sin hanging on the cross of Calvary. It’s a symbolic display of all my darkness and evil placed on the shoulders of innocence and kindness. Though ultimately it was my Heavenly Father who sacrificed / executed Jesus, it was the weight of my sin that killed him. I was part of the mob crying out - "Crucify him!" - every time I refused to walk away from sin in my life. I was the one that helped set a murderer free (Barabass) instead of Jesus, because he stood in the way of the things I loved so much about this world. I was the evil ruler who doubted his truth. It was me that spit in the face of God and said “only I can know what is truly right and wrong in this world…” that if God loved me he’d stop judging my selfish desires, which is the only shred of comfort I can find from my trauma and pain. I’m the one melting down my treasures God blessed me with to mold it into the God of my choosing. Into the thing I worship over God's distant and vague “relationship”. I then certainly mocked Jesus with my rebellion and twisted his truth to align with my own, exactly like the Pharisees did their law. A little twist here and a little twist there, deforming God's requests for holiness into a perverted gospel that speaks religious dogma, only benefiting those lost in their own lustful pride for life. My eyes are never satisfied and my heart holds nothing sacred. I betrayed my brother and raped my sister while Jesus stood at the door of my heart knocking. So, before I can ride my religious high horse into the sunset of sin, I must first stare into the face of what scares the hell out of me… Truth!
Some veteran Jackson Mississippi Samson guys' musings, recommended resources, and Samson Society news / updates (all written by 100% Grade A - Human Intelligence)
Weekly meetings available to you are as follows:
Tuesday at 6:30 PM, Truitt Baptist Church - Pearl. Call Matt Flint at (601) 260-8518 or email him at matthewflint.makes@gmail.com.
Wednesday at 6:00 PM, First Baptist Church Jackson - Summit Counseling Suite - 431 North State St. Jackson. Call Don Waller at 601-946-1290 or email him at don@wallerbros.com.
Monday at 6:30 PM , Vertical Church - 521 Gluckstadt Road Madison, MS 39110. Mr. Roane Hunter, facilitator, LifeWorks Counseling.
Wednesday at 7:00 PM, Crossgates Baptist Church. Brandon Reach out to Matthew Lehman at (601)-214-4077 for further info.
Sunday night at 6:00 PM, Grace Crossing Baptist Church - 598 Yandell Rd. Canton. Call Joe McCalman at 601-201-5608 or email him at cookandnoonie@gmail.com.
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