"A Note From Dad" - JR Everhart

I know that all of hell is attacking your sanity and peace of mind.  Be still and know that I am God.  I can’t make her love you, yes it breaks my heart too.  But I can promise you that I will never stop loving you or reaching into your mess to heal and restore you.  I have given all of mankind the ability to choose their own pathways on earth.  And all of humanity will live by the choices they make.  I allow this because without choice, you cannot love me as I desire.  You have to choose me, and accept my blessings in your life.  But on the other side of choice lives darkness, and I have to allow that darkness for this season of humanity in order for love to have space to grow in your hearts.  It always grieves me to see my children suffering at the hands of poor choices, and the choices of those that direct their darkness towards you.  But because of the darkness living in the hearts of men and women, the human experience will always be hard and full of suffering.  No one is exempt from this! 

But, I loved mankind so much I gave of myself through Jesus, the ability to be reconciled back to me through his work on the cross.  You are only miserable because your heart is full of sorrow.  Your behavior does not reflect the person I so deeply love living inside you.  I know who you really are, and I see the good that sleeps under the surface of your pain.  You live in this pain and suffering because you're too afraid to lay it at my feet and walk away.  You loved the person that hurt you so much that your pain is all you have left of them to hang onto.  If you didn’t love them, this wouldn’t hurt so bad.  It’s ok to feel the grief and pain of abandonment, but it’s not ok to live there.  You’ve grieved enough!  It’s time to give that pain to me now, and be free.  It’s time to release yourself from the bondage of lost love, and move on with your life.  Hold your head high and know that I walk with you… every step, every victory, and yes, even every failure.  I am… and will always be your loving God, drawing you toward me in the times you feel most distance from me.  I’m there inside your sin speaking light into your darkness.  Drawing you back to the table of restorative conversation.  You are not alone, even when you choose to be alone, and I am growing you out of the ashes of your heartbreak.  You will love again, and I will be there with you.  I love you son, and I’m proud of the man you’ve become in the face of horror and with every opportunity to blame me for it all.  Nothing brings me joy more than you running to my arms when you could easily return to your toxic behavior.  Instead, with every demon in hell screaming at you that I’m not here with you and that I don’t care about you, you never gave up believing in my goodness.  Yes, you had times of doubt and we had very hard conversations together.  But here we are still together, and you attempting to trust me with your life.  I know it’s hard, but I promise to strengthen you along the way.  Just lean on me and I will be your Savior.  Your heart, even in its darkest days was still yearning for my love.  Only my true children understand these things.  And I love you for this and will bless everything you put your hand to do as long as I’m your Father.  I will turn your trials into a foundation of growth, and your sorrow into joy.  But you have to trust me and give me everything.  I cannot heal what you don’t give me, and I will never force my will on to you.  There are more hard times ahead, but never forget this conversation, or what you mean to me. 

Your Heavenly Father,

God