The hopelessness is also tied to their life on Earth being over, and therefore my understanding of them having no chance of being any different overall - for the better, for the overall good of humanity.
I'm thinking in particular to two individuals. One who died a few years following our leaving Cleveland, MS behind and another who died just yesterday.
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I know Scripture decrees God's appointing of individuals into positions of authority / leadership, and because of my belief in the authoritative nature of Scripture, I accept that as truth.
And you must know that I'm a positive thinker overall. I gravitate seeing the good in the present, past, and future. So maybe that's what serves to interfere mostly in me making peace with the fact that these individuals are gone from Earth forever.
Take for example, the man who died this week. He was an academic, a scholar in the best sense of that word. And due to my chosen career path, I could not avoid his influence within my young, collegiate life. But oh how I loathed even crossing his path with my own! He exuded such an air of cruelty and disdain, and that mindset came through in spades via his countenance (especially so within his eyes).
The last time I engaged with this man was 5 or 6 years ago during a weekend architectural tour of a deceased Mississippi architect's work in Meridian. Even then, outside of the four walls of academia, he was no less frightening to spend time with.
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My grandmother also fit into this category (she would be the third), now that I think about it. And when she passed, I too felt this way about her.
Again, to reiterate what I said before, you just want to see redemption within their lives, but knowing that change must come from within. Healing. Repentance. Change.
Not so they can be any different as a created being within their respective role, but that they can be better. Much, much better.
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