The more I distance myself from toxic people, the more I find myself isolated. Making new friends is tough these days, and connection is essential to sober survival. So, I march on in faith that God will provide. So much of my struggles come from loneliness and unmet needs of physical attention that only a woman can give. What do you do when the Bible instructs you to take a wife to stay pure, but the dating scene is like a shark tank filled with battery acid? Lol. I’m not attracted to the women that seem to have things together. As such, the women I am attracted to are so bombarded by other guys I rarely have a chance to even start a conversation with them. It all leaves me feeling abandoned into my own struggles and failures. It can be a dark place to be if I don’t stay connected to a support group. And honestly, even then, it’s still about coming home to an empty house, and being left to my own devices. I don’t lose the battle all the time; in fact, I win much more than I lose. But it’s still there, that aching for the physical touch of a woman. I know it sounds bleak and depressing, but God is faithful, and he always provides distractions and hobbies to keep me busy. But there are times I’m exhausted from all that. Exhausted from the fight and all the recovery hoops I have to jump through to make it through my day or week. But hey, it’s way better than the alternative…
Some veteran Jackson Mississippi Samson guys' musings, recommended resources, and Samson Society news / updates (all written by 100% Grade A - Human Intelligence)
Weekly meetings available to you are as follows:
Tuesday at 6:30 PM, Truitt Baptist Church - Pearl. Call Matt Flint at (601) 260-8518 or email him at matthewflint.makes@gmail.com.
Wednesday at 6:00 PM, First Baptist Church Jackson - Summit Counseling Suite - 431 North State St. Jackson. Call Don Waller at 601-946-1290 or email him at don@wallerbros.com.
Monday at 6:30 PM , Vertical Church - 521 Gluckstadt Road Madison, MS 39110. Mr. Roane Hunter, facilitator, LifeWorks Counseling.
Wednesday at 7:00 PM, Crossgates Baptist Church. Brandon Reach out to Matthew Lehman at (601)-214-4077 for further info.
Sunday night at 6:00 PM, Grace Crossing Baptist Church - 598 Yandell Rd. Canton. Call Joe McCalman at 601-201-5608 or email him at cookandnoonie@gmail.com.
Tuesday, July 12, 2022
"The High Cost Of Recovery" - JR Everhart
Sunday, July 10, 2022
"Will You Be My BFF If I Suck Your Dick / Sodomize You?"
The Internet - URLs, apps for pocket computers - gives us exceptionally easy opportunity to splinter into tribes. And these tribes can be built around all manner of mutually agreed upon tropes, but in the end, their purpose is to provide men with relational respect and women with relational security. Those are the baseline needs being carried out therein.
Saturday, July 9, 2022
Thursday, July 7, 2022
Wrestling Away Control / Rob Can't Be Trusted
I obtained a new desktop PC at work, and taking into consideration how well things are going as of late - in general - I'm prone to celebrate by consuming some gay Internet porn.
Tuesday, July 5, 2022
Monday, July 4, 2022
"Hard People = Hard Choices" - JR Everhart
The path of victory always runs through the town of suffering. Growth is rarely compatible with comfort. I get so twisted and frustrated with the challenging people in my life. It sometimes turns me into a bull that gives everyone around me the horns. I’m a firm believer that challenging people are great assets of growth. But the journey mostly sucks. Lol. These people trigger all our dysfunctional reactions and make us think about what our true character is. These people are the refiners-fire challenging us to align our walk with our talk. It’s easy to stand and talk about how great a person you are until some jerk takes you for granted and treats you like your nobody, and eventually dismisses everything you're trying to do in life. These people have no idea the mountains of suffering you’ve had to climb, or the high cliffs you’ve had to navigate to just become functional. Or how about all the loss that lays on the road behind you from all the hard lessons you’ve had to learn. But at its core, this is testing your resilience and ability to love those that are hard to love. Newsflash! We are hard to love at times, and Jesus still sets at our table of chaos and enjoys a conversation with us over a meal. His love for us through all our anger, malice, frustration, and self-entitlement never ceases to amaze me.