A Samson brother introduced me to (in early 2022) the concept of brain dysregulation whilst regularly attending (well over one year) a very well-attended virtual Samson meeting with him alongside. This brain dysregulation idea centers around the brain becoming asymmetrical (imbalanced). As such, the side that's out of sync needs some serious attention. Having little use for this idea then, I paid it little attention, until...
For Rob, my eventual dysregulation occurred on the right side of my grey matter earlier this year. Hence, I felt a deep-seated need to dream / fantasize / escape reality. My easy access go-to therein to satiate these needs for such a lopsided brain would normally have been porn / salacious imagery.
Around mid-March, another Samson brother asked to share a dictated (voice memo app) "fantasy story" he'd written which centered around he and his spouse (who at the time was emotionally distant due to his recent difficult confessions) and her responsiveness to his sexual needs.
This explicit creative writing exercise fleshed out his then desires for her and his marriage in spite of its / their current desecrated state. As a result of reading this, I became incredibly inspired, and not only via the captivating story itself but the ongoing healing result (right brain flexure).
Hence, I began my own creative writing spree (in lieu of writing posts here). This explains my absence.
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Three stories were generated as a result. The first's plot focused on a private, paranormal relationship between my uncle and I when I was between the ages of 12-15; it centered heavily on this 20+ year older man and his positive masculine influence as a result of said relationship. And though the story involved sexual overtones, it was by no means written to titillate. Instead, from the perspective of a young teen boy (based on my recollected childhood), it put words / thoughts on the page addressing then private shame related to very typical adolescent / pubescent angst. This tale was written in five distinct chapters.
The second story was simple and fast. It fleshed out a fictional friendship between myself and a young man who I've only known at a distance over the past few years.
The third story ended up being my opus. This one had thirteen distinct chapters with a heady epilogue. I'm still coming off of the high that resulted from this distinct, very personal tale being generated.
In essence, it involved me being befriended by a Christian college student (graduate school) during my senior year in high school. This older man I barely knew from my teenage years (working at Chick-A-Fil). No doubt, I had deep admiration for / attraction towards him from a distance. In order to properly flesh out his character, I grafted a recent Samson friend's persona over this guy, and as a result, the character and subsequently narrative gained tremendous legs.
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I share this with you to hopefully inspire. There's so much you can do creatively - that doesn't involve lustful thoughts / porn use - to rectify your dysregulation. For me, creative writing was the tremendous fix I was looking for. Try it today!
