Honoring The Mother Ship's (First Baptist Church Jackson) Cherished '70s / '80s' Pastor - Dr. Frank Pollard - 10/08/78 transcript

"Dinner With Jesus" - JR Everhart

“Look! I stand at the door and knock.  If you hear My voice and open the door, I will come in, and we will share a meal together as friends."  Revelation 3:20 | NLT

This scripture blows my mind and breaks me every time I read it.  It always reminds me of this Old Testament scripture: 

“Come now, and let us reason together,”says the Lord,“though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; Though they are red like crimson, they shall be as wool.

Isaiah 1:18 | NKJV

God wants to be my friend.  He likes me; he sees my internal struggles with sin and only asks that we sit down and reason these things out.  No matter how lost I am and rejected by everyone around me, Jesus is still saying - I will sit with you and break bread.  That is the opposite of how we typically treat each other, and it reveals how distorted our view of God's character is.  Jesus walked the Earth like one of us, but he was never one of us.  He never responded to this world's temptation as we do, nor to its horror as we do.  He had compassion for the hurting, and patience with the disciples when they would bicker and argue amongst themselves.  His life left such an impression on his followers that countless people have given their lives for the cause of Christ.  Yet, he knocks at the door of my heart everyday - just wanting to come in and have dinner with me.  To sit and converse with me about my life. 

So many times, we invite Jesus into our lives but not into the dark corners of our secrets and hardest struggles. I know personally that I’ll ask for forgiveness for the sin I allow into my life regularly, but rarely do I talk to him about the blueprints of my choosing sin over and over.  Some days it’s anger and malice, other days it’s things I’m so ashamed of I wouldn’t dare speak about it.  But in the dark alleys of my poor choices, Jesus stands and says “come to me, I see your pain and I know why you do these things.  I was there weeping with you during your abuse and abandonment.  Come let’s break bread and sit for awhile, I want to hear about your pain…” This scripture explains why… 

"But He was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins.  He was beaten so we could be whole.  He was whipped so we could be healed." Isaiah 53:5 | NLT

I believe that when Jesus was hanging on the cross at Calvary, he could see our rebellion and weight of sin for all of mankind and asked the Father, “ Forgive them for they know not what they do…” Luke 23:34.  Jesus felt the pain of my child abuse; the King James translation of Isaiah 53:5 says “The chastisement of our peace was upon him…” which means anytime our peace has been attacked or abused Jesus felt that at Calvary.  He took all of our suffering upon himself so that we could stand strong and proud of his redemptive work and march forward.  Yes, I know we still suffer many things in this world.  The human experience is full of suffering.  But when we suffer, we can find peace in the fact that Jesus gave us freedom over this world's suffering.  So, we don’t have to allow that suffering to control our lives or trigger toxic behavior.  We are overcomers!  A dear friend of mine once told me that “we can’t be overcomers without something to overcome…”  Jesus settled it this way…

"I have told you all this so that you may have peace in Me.  Here on Earth you will have many trials and sorrows.  But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” John 16:33 | NLT

And yet again he knocks… inside our sin and shame - he knocks.  He sees all from a heavenly vantage point. And the culture of heaven is of healing and restoration.  Even in the face of our cycles of failure.  He knocks and still wants to have dinner with us.  Will you open the door and welcome him into your pain and sorrow?  Until we get comfortable with exposing our darkness to his light, we will remain lost in the forest of our sorrow.  With a handful of tickets already paid for, there’s nowhere to spend these dreams on the midway.  We just stand there alone and afraid that this will be the rest of our lives.  Lost in empty suffering, abandoned without hope of rescue.  For some of us, this has been our lives for far too long. Answer the door… 

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Paranoid people have a propensity to twist almost everything you do for them.  They'll do the same with whatever you say to or about them (even if it's obviously said in harmless fun).  Like the definition states above:  "They take nothing at face value".  

Besides my father, I encountered my first paranoid adult in the form of my first boss (back in 1995).  That relationship was short-lived (I was laid off after +/-1 year).  Boss #3 (real job #3) served to reanimate that exact same experience.  

Initially, I didn't see this bossman's paranoia (it had been some time since I'd experienced this relationally within a vocational setting), but eventually, I recognized it clearly for what it was (along with my vocational colleagues).  Due to the fact that this was a state government position, my boss' paranoia was somewhat easier to stomach overall - day in and day out.  That being said, over time, it did become overbearing.

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What can be done whilst forced to engage with paranoid individuals (parental / vocational / volunteer)?

[& please know this is assuming the paranoid person isn't aware / willing to take ownership of said paranoia.]

Separate yourself.  And not necessarily physically but emotionally.  And the reason I recommend this is to be best prepared to guard your own heart from their accusations (which can be exceedingly hurtful / confusing).  

When paranoid people feel threatened, their rational mind runs screaming from the building.  And this is when everything goes ape shit (for both you and them if they're in any position of authority over you).

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What is a root cause of paranoia?

I believe in many cases it's self-loathing.  Self-loathing that refuses to permit the paranoid individual from trusting by default.  

So, who do these individuals trust?  Anyone?

Based on my observations, I believe they trust, much more easily, individuals who're publicized as trustworthy.  For example, television / radio personalities / authors / pastors and certain entertainers.  Obviously, these are all professional trust-sellers who've garnered fame by popularizing trust in they themselves, their philosophy, story, etc.  

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Enjoy walking on eggshells and subsequently being exhausted?  Hang out with the paranoid.    

Even better, go marry or work for one.  

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